再见了娜娜

再见了娜娜

剧作家：海岛

献给艾薇儿

“娜娜，我觉得有必要告诉你一个真相……其实安东不是你想象中的中产阶级，他的父亲其实是巴黎洛克家族的人，他们一家搬来马赛居住，其实是干一笔隐秘的生意。所以安东看起来不像有钱人，服装一般，座驾普通，但和我们聚会的时候却喜欢花钱，好像很豪爽的样子，其实是他根本不在乎花钱。谁都知道，整个马赛最有钱的人是布兰奇家族，但是安东家族只会更有钱……”

“你为什么告诉我这些？”

“因为我厌倦了继续和你玩游戏了，我与安东之间，你必须做个选择。”

“所以你跟我说安东多么有钱，但头脑简单，你多么贫穷，但多有才华，然后要我在你俩之间选择一个。你认为我是个拜金女么？”

“我不会说你是个拜金女，但你渴望成功，你外貌高贵，从事业余模特好几年了，我知道是因为你父亲的病，以及你有两个需要金钱上学的弟弟，你想成为明星，这样你就可以有钱照顾家人了。但在马赛，没有一定的资本，你根本无法成功，成为电影里的主角。所以我泄露了安东的秘密，或许他可以帮你。而我，你非常清楚，我只是一名贫穷的学生，还说不上是歌手，只是一个爱好音乐的人，我也需要帮助，但我是男的，你帮不了我，别的女生也不会来帮我，所以就让我自生自灭吧。”

“真是可笑，爱伦，你以为跟我说这些，我就会选择你么？你根本不知道我需要的是什么，而你作为一个男人，居然对我说一些贬低自己的话，看来，我看错了你，一直以来，我都以为你是一个有音乐天赋的男生，但现在我才知道你根本是个毫无自信的可怜虫。”

“是的，我承认自己是个可怜虫。而且，从明天开始，我就会从马赛消失了，一个你以后永远看不见的可怜虫！”

“什么意思？我不选择你，你就自杀？”

“是失踪，不是自杀。”

“有什么区别？”

“我不想浪费口舌了，最后，在我离开前，我只问你，你，我，安东，我们曾今是三角恋的关系，我想听你亲口说，你爱谁？”

“你是歌手，安东是画家，但我哪个都不爱，我只把你们当朋友，如果你非要我做个选择，那我就选择自己消失。最后我告诉你，以后别再跟我说这种话，否则我们连朋友也做不了。”

“好吧，”我耸了耸肩膀，十分痛苦地说：“我不索求答案了，时间不早了，我得走了，晚安。”

娜娜看我的眼神很无奈，像是嘲笑我，我是很失常，说了不少真话，但是我又非得说出真话，否则以后失踪的我会更加后悔。

现在的我正在自己家的洗手间里，面对一面镜子，里面的我金色短发，两边剃光，青春帅气，加上我多年锻炼的肌肉，190的身材，活像一个漂亮的模特。事实上我锻炼身体，为当明星，已经准备了好多年了。如果不是最近发生在我身上的离奇诡异的事，说不定我还会继续努力，一边练嗓子，一边学作曲，坚持锻炼身体，那些成功的明星，在成名之前不是在做和我同样的事么？

我还想过，一旦我成名了，成为职业歌手，我的唱片会放在全世界售卖。但我的野心不止于此，而是想开一家汽车公司，任命我的父亲为CEO。因为就现在，我的父亲只是一家汽车公司的销售经理，他干销售二十多年了，为了妻子和孩子，努力工作，每天六点醒来，夜晚九点回家，他不是个成功的男人，却为了家庭日夜奔波。我心疼他的努力，所以一度发誓，要成为著名歌星，帮自己的家人过上幸福的日子。

我之所以改变了想法，认为自己当不上歌星了，是因为发生了离奇的事，我异变了，会变成一个狼人。每个夜晚，只要月亮升起，我就会不由自己的异变，先是骨骼变样，然后皮肤变老，然后浑身长毛，直到最后脑袋变成一个狼头。这样我就成了一个狼人，但不是电影里虚构的狼人，而是一个现实里的狼人。

目下，天色渐渐黑暗下来，我在洗手间里，没有开灯，任由窗外的光线变黑。随着一轮明月升起，我果然又开始异变了。如同前面说的，先是骨骼变样，然后皮肤变老，然后浑身长毛……这时，窗外黑暗的天际，忽然响起一道尖锐的鸟鸣声，一只庞大的黑鹰翱翔飞来，它竟然直朝我的房间扑来。令我吃惊的是，这只黑鹰仅仅是身体很像老鹰，但当它靠近，我却看见它的脑袋，竟然和我一样，是个鹰嘴与人脸结合的怪异动物。

然后它伫立在我窗前，露出一个鹰人结合的诡异笑容。

“是你么？”我讶异的问。

“桀桀，是我，给你写信的人。相信你已经准备好了，加入我们，成为伟大的兽人王国的一员。这是一个恶魔的游戏，有神在操控我们，未来还会有很多的人类异化，或者变成狮人，或者变成蜘蛛人，或者变成任何兽人。但我们一旦成为兽人，就必须与人类为敌，这是神的使命。所以我才让你与女朋友分手，必须绝了七情六欲，没有家庭，没有爱人，成为一个冷酷的杀手。先前你与娜娜说的话，我都听见了，你与她分手了，我很满意，否则，我很可能出手杀了她，包括安东，让你变成一个更加冷酷的狼人，杀手……好了，现在你跟我走吧，跃在我的背上来。”鹰人怪笑的说。

我毫不犹豫的一个纵跃，伫立于这只鹰人的背上，它便翅膀一拍一拍，高高飞起，让我得以首次看见底下的马赛，房子一个个变小，像是火柴盒，我回想起了娜娜离别我的眼神，她没有选择我，也没有说选择安东，但是我心里知道，在她知道安东其实是富豪洛克家族的人，她会更加瞧不起我，把我当一个街头卖唱的落魄歌手，穷人，失败者，而以后，她注定会选择安东的。或许她真的不是一个拜金女，但一旦有金钱在她身边，触手可及，那她怎么会拒绝呢？

Goodbye Nana

Writer: Island

Dedicated to Avril

"Nana, I think it's necessary to tell you a truth... In fact, Anton is not the middle class you imagine. His father is actually from the Locke family in Paris. They moved to Marseille to live and actually did a secret business. So Anton doesn't look like a rich man, his clothes are ordinary, and his car is ordinary, but when he meets with us, he likes to spend money, as if he is very generous, but in fact he doesn't care about spending money at all. Everyone knows that the richest people in Marseille are the Blanche family, but the Anton family will only be richer..."

"Why are you telling me this?"

"Because I'm tired of playing games with you. You must make a choice between me and Anton."

"So you told me how rich Anton was but simple-minded, how poor you were but talented, and then asked me to choose between the two of you. Do you think I'm a gold digger?"

"I wouldn't say you're a gold digger, but you're eager to succeed. You look noble and have been an amateur model for several years. I know it's because of your father's illness and your two younger brothers who need money to go to school. You want to be a star so that you can have money to take care of your family. But in Marseille, without a certain amount of capital, you can't succeed and become the protagonist in a movie. So I revealed Anton's secret, maybe he can help you. And I, you know very well, I'm just a poor student, not even a singer, just a person who loves music, I also need help, but I am a man, you can't help me, and other girls won't help me, so just let me fend for myself."

"How ridiculous, Ellen, do you think I will choose you if you tell me this? You don't know what I need at all, and as a man, you actually say something that belittles yourself to me. It seems that I have misjudged you. I have always thought that you are a boy with musical talent, but now I know that you are a poor guy with no confidence."

"Yes, I admit that I am a poor guy. Moreover, starting tomorrow, I will disappear from Marseille, a poor guy you will never see again!"

"What do you mean? If I don't choose you, you will commit suicide?"

"It's disappearance, not suicide."

"What's the difference? "I don't want to waste my breath. Finally, before I leave, I only want to ask you, you, me, Anton, we were once in a love triangle. I want to hear you say it yourself, who do you love?" "You are a singer, Anton is a painter, but I don't love either of you. I only regard you as friends. If you force me to make a choice, then I will choose to disappear. Finally, I tell you, don't say this to me again, otherwise we can't even be friends." "Okay," I shrugged my shoulders and said painfully, "I don't ask for an answer. It's late. I have to go. Good night." Nana looked at me helplessly, as if she was laughing at me. I was very abnormal and told a lot of truth, but I had to tell the truth, otherwise I would regret it more when I disappeared in the future. Now I am in the bathroom of my own home, facing a mirror. I have short golden hair, shaved on both sides, youthful and handsome, plus the muscles I have trained for many years, and a figure of 190, like a beautiful model. In fact, I have been exercising and preparing to be a star for many years. If it weren't for the bizarre things that happened to me recently, maybe I would have continued to work hard, practicing my voice, learning to compose, and keeping fit. Aren't those successful stars doing the same thing as me before they became famous?

I also thought that once I became famous and became a professional singer, my records would be sold all over the world. But my ambition is not limited to this. I want to start a car company and appoint my father as CEO. Because right now, my father is just a sales manager of a car company. He has been doing sales for more than 20 years. He works hard for his wife and children, wakes up at six o'clock every day, and goes home at nine o'clock at night. He is not a successful man, but he runs around day and night for his family. I feel sorry for his efforts, so I once vowed to become a famous singer and help my family live a happy life.

The reason why I changed my mind and thought I couldn't be a singer was because something bizarre happened. I changed and became a werewolf. Every night, as long as the moon rises, I can't help but change. First, my bones change, then my skin gets old, then my body grows hair, until my head finally becomes a wolf head. In this way, I became a werewolf, but not a fictional werewolf in the movie, but a real werewolf.

At present, the sky gradually darkened. I was in the bathroom without turning on the light, letting the light outside the window darken. As a bright moon rose, I really began to change again. As mentioned before, first the bones changed, then the skin became old, and then the whole body grew hair... At this time, a sharp bird cry suddenly sounded in the dark sky outside the window, and a huge black eagle soared and flew over, and it actually swooped straight towards my room. What surprised me was that this black eagle only had a body that looked like an eagle, but when it approached, I saw that its head was actually a strange animal with an eagle's beak and a human face like mine.

Then it stood in front of my window, showing a weird smile that was a combination of an eagle and a human.

"Is it you?" I asked in surprise.

"Hehe, it's me who wrote to you. I believe you are ready to join us and become a member of the great orc kingdom. This is a devil's game, and God is controlling us. In the future, there will be many alienated humans, or become lions, or become spiders, or become any orcs. But once we become orcs, we must be enemies of humans. This is God's mission. That's why I asked you to break up with your girlfriend, to give up all emotions, to have no family, no lover, and become a cold-blooded killer. I heard what you said to Nana before. I am very satisfied that you broke up with her. Otherwise, I might kill her, including Anton, and turn you into an even colder werewolf, a killer...Okay, now you come with me, jump on my back." Eagle Man said with a strange smile. I leaped without hesitation and stood on the back of the eagle. It flapped its wings and flew high, allowing me to see Marseille below for the first time. The houses became smaller one by one, like matchboxes. I recalled the look in Nana's eyes when she left me. She didn't choose me, nor did she say she chose Anton, but I knew in my heart that when she knew that Anton was actually from the wealthy Locke family, she would look down on me even more and treat me as a down-and-out singer singing on the street, a poor person, a loser, and in the future, she was destined to choose Anton. Maybe she really wasn't a gold digger, but once there was money around her, within her reach, how could she refuse?